birthday

so im gonna be 17 soon...jan 3rd!....and i've put together a little list of what i want:

-mocassins!!!
-cardigans x100
-sum leather boots (brown, black,etc)
-headbands,rings,neckalaces
-ae super skinny jeans 2x
-mint green nail polish (i kno random lol)
-cartilage pierced ( my mom said yes!but she thought i forgot about it and she's a little iffy about going to a tattoo palor but she'll get over it :)
-baldwin hills to come back on BET
-a guy who can rock space jams nd not look like everybody else
-a new look...idk something with my hair im tired of it now...maybe ill put in sum braids...but im thinkimg of trying the hairstyle that i saw Sham from lateboots.blogspot.com rocking.
-10 pounds ( not english $$, as in i wanna gain this)

got alot on my mind

iight i dont feel like writing it all out right now but basically im feeling really.... like on the outside riite now. like my friend she came in ninth grade n people didnt really pay attention to her ...now 11th grade all the sudden its like she a celebrity among the boys...like we go to a party last sat. niggas is passin her around n askin for her numba and we're all like when did this happen? then today she basically deaded me to tlk to some guys again. and wat hurt me the most was that they all acted like i wasnt even there....wow just wow...like i dont understand....wut is it tht i did/do tht ...idk i juss dont even know what to say...

nd its not even like im not liked or something cuz when i got to parties with guys from other skools they tlk to me easy puttin their arm around me and not afraid to dancw with me....i think its juss the niggas at this skool...they juss wanna FUCK FUCK FUCK.... and my girl don't c tht....im starting to think tht tht's all they want from her..to c who's the first to bag her up n she doesn't see this like she's in denial when we tell her "_____ u turning into a lil ho" and at first we was joking but now its like true... now its like i dont even care about the guys in this skool cuz i c so much better when im not there....like dudes actually b coming up to u they not shy to talk to u...but in my skool? everyone's fuxked everyone else.... thats so dead to me...i dont care if im the only virgin next yr at prom either...ill wave my flag proudly...im not gonna whore around with these playas who say " on to the next one" when they done with u....nahhhh im to smart for tht

PARTYYYY

wow i feel alot of regret riight now. i was invited to this kids "swagga sixteen" that i've known since 5th grade. nd i didnt go b/c the two people who r my friends who were gonna go couldn't...nd i don't go to parties alone like tht. i mean i kinda knew who was gonna b there nd i dont like his friends so i didnt go. thn i see the pic's on fb and it mad me regret no going b/c Tee was there! and it just looked like fun in general but i think im juss making myself feel bad....b/c most of those people i wouldn't have any real fun with so it mite have been a good party but not one fo rme to go to. BUTTT its all good cuz im invited to another party for dec 12 next week so i looking forward to tht b/c my REAL friends are going so i know i'll actually have a good time and not "fake" fun. You know wut im tlking about :)

my hair cut epiphany

When I first got this “trim” I had mixed feeling about it. I liked it because it was shiny and straight and flowed with me but I hated it at the same time because it was so short. People told me it wasn’t that short especially my friend who had a similar problem with getting a “trim.” I felt like the black news caster on TV with the pretty face and short professional hair. It was feeling it for a few hours until I tried to put it into a ponytail. It looked ugly and short…just the kind I hated. I immediately wished for my long hair back. I felt like I could only do one style: down or half up half down. I finally however realized something today…it was kinda like a mini epiphany. I needed that “trim”, that haircut. When she was cutting off those dead ends and I was letting go of all the things that hurt me, the person I once was. She was preventing those split ends from getting worst and destroying my hair and I was preventing the monsters of my past from harming me any longer; destroying myself, my being. I was cutting off my old ways making room for the new me….the me that could work hard for what she wanted, do HER, strive for success, and forget about the haters. So even though I still don’t really like my hair cut…I can embrace it and learn to live with it because it symbolizes so much more than just cut hair…it’s a cut into my new life.

twitter

so ive finally fallen into this crazy thing...im not fully hooked yea but its pretty kool...so um follow me @tibaDee

Tee

so i promised i'd tell you about the new guy that i kinda liked. well its like this...
i feel very empty in school like it was feeling so dead so i told this to my friend and he told me that i prob needed someone to be with me so i wouldnt feel empty. so then my girl shanice tells me she noticed im always fighting with this boy in my class who we'll call Tee. so i realize that he liked me and because of that i started liking him....buuuuuut now i dont like him so this post was kindof a waste lol :)

welcome back

wooow...so i haven't been on here in a maddd long time lol. idk i juss didnt feel like writing anything and my laptop is broken so im using the regular computer. but i got mad stuffz to tell ya'll like how on the first days swagg's brother deaded me....so i did it right back lol. now theres someone else who likes me nd i kinda like him but idk man...ill write the longer version of this post later. oh and homecoming is 2morro can't waiiiit!

niecy's sweet sixteen

so i went to like my besties sweet sixteen last niite...its was kool. i mean chick came like an hour late lol nd every1 wanted to dance ( ESPECIALLY MOI) nd the dj keep playin like reggae which i usually like but yesterday he wasnt evn playin GOOD reggae so every was mad. mad people who were supposed to come didn't like wtf. i felt bad for my girl cuz i barely evn saw her dancing. thn i go on fb nd c people commenting "smhhhh" about her party like i kno she worked mad hard for it its not her fault the dj was retarded n mad people didnt evn show like really...c'mon now. but i mad it fun anyway cuz u kno i like dancin when the music starts playin i gotta dance thts just how i am srry ohhh i was gringin with my friend like heyy. he was like i cant dance with u u go to low lol.....srry! hahaha but yea all in all it was iight i just wish more people were there nd the people who were there more enthusiatic, nah mean?

11th grade!

dayumm time flys by mad fast i feel like i was just a freshmen who was crushing mad hard over swagg....lol but those day r long gone. i didnt start any of my summer hw nd i feel like im kinda screwed now like damn. but im mad excited cuz my bestie is havin her sweet sixteen on saturday!!!! i can't wait i've been dyin for a party for mad long and here it is....plus i get to c who got sexy over the summer ya dig? and get a few dances in with some old/new crushes...aka a little preview b4 school lmaooo. i still dont know which dress imma wear tho this pretty purple dress or this summery yellow strapless one...tho i mite get that one shortened. and im gonna but my hair in a side bun with my bangs out....im gonna look fierceeeeee!!

soul searchin

i need to some serious like damn SERIOUS soul searching b4 i go back to skool. today was SB's last day and i couldnt tlk to him. i wanted to but i couldn't. every opportunity i saw and let it fuxkin pass me by. like they were all staring me in the face. i wanted to give him a hug and tell him to c.a.l.l. me but i punked out. i feel soooo bad like dayum wtf is wrong wit me? im not shy but i let things just pass me by nd regret thm hardbody later on. so thts y i gotta do my soul searching to change tht stupid pussy ass move i always do. like really im pissed riite now and the only person i can really b mad at is me.

bag a nigga

so remember when i was like how the dude i like brother likes me nd i kinda like him? well heres the story, man. they meaning my loser friends at camp wanted me to give him my number nd alex my brothers friend who tlks to swaggs brother aka SB tld me SB wanted my number he wants to tlk to me. so my friend brittany wrote my number in his hand but she had the wrong number so when he called obviously i didnt pick up. he called me when we were waiting in the gym on our bus lines n i saw him on the phone n he was looking at me n i was like wut is he doin? SO ANYWAY yesterday they said that i had to tlk to him or else they'd blow up my spot. so brittany was pestering me on the bus line u betta go over or i am in 5 4 3 2 1. i was like iight! damn im going but come wit me. so we went over there n at first i didnt kno wat to say
so i just said `do u have ur phone
he's like- no its broken
so im like u got a pen
he's like no
so i yelled at melanie my bus counseler to lemme borrow her pen nd thn wrote down my number in her hand. he's like imma use ur phone on the bus to his friend nd his friends like no u not.

thn he called me in the gym nd i was laughin caz i couldn't here wut he was saying it was too loud.

SO ANYWAY when i got home i was supposed to go adventureland which is an amusement park but sudeenly no one could go so i stayed home. nd i was mad nervous like wut if he didnt call me? thn it was like six something nd im my laptop when i see a number idk im like omg omg thn i pick it up like hello nd he's hey nd im like whose this he like * SB*. so we tlking nd he ask me y im so shy im like idk he like u gotta kno. so anyway we tlking how we gonna fight on monday nd all this funny stuff...he think he mad slick tho he be saying sum sexual stuff on the low mad quick thinkin i can't hear him.

EXAMPLE: he know my brother so hes like lemme tlk to ur brother so i asked my mom where ur son nd he like u got a son? im like yea his name is joe nd he says MILF real quick im like WAT!? he like u heard that im like yea! lol but he mad cute .

i can't stop smiling whenever i think about it lol can't wait till monday

update 'n

so i promised u guys id tell u what happnened but its alot so im gonna list it
1, my ex was getting jealous caz i was tlking to this chocolate cutie named E.
2. the ex hit E nd everyone got mad at him
3. i stopped tlking to him.
4. swaggs brother goes to the camp nd he was eyeing me so i furgured he liked me. when me n my brother n his friend were sitting on our bus line n swaggs brother asks my who am i caz im hot nd he yells thats my sister. so thn im texting this kid alex my brothers friends who's on swaggs brother's ( S.B) bus asking him whats S.B said nd he said i look good.
5. im tlkgin to this boy on my bus and he asks if i have a boyfriend nd im like no nd he's like my friend S.B. likes you. so the problem here is i kinda like him too cuz he is a cuter version of swagg , he got a body odie odie buuuuut this is always the problem he's 14 n gonna b a freshman this yr when im a junior...dayuuum idk man i got this stuff all backwards. but he is a cutie
6. the ex still tryna get wit me even tho he got a girl now...wait scratch that he got 3 girlsfreinds. yep nd everyone except thm kno it. he pretends he is single so he can bag more girls nd comes up to me asking me if i need help wit the kids wit this smile on his face im like uh no.....caz i knew what shit he was tryna pull there...asshole.
7. i saw harry potter last niite wit people from camp and E was there. i ended up sitting next to him..it was kinda akward. plus i was tired nd this kid was making out with this girl from our camp in front of me the whole time like dayummm nd the seat was alll shaking....today i learn that he was fingering her? wtf son never going to the movies wit them again.


well thn thats all up to date so i'll let u kno what happens next :)

new title!!!

yeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa got the new title....you like it? owwww lol

CIT shxt

remember when i tld u guys how i was going to camp or watever? well this week has been full of DRAMA mainly because of my stupid ex lil boi who is so effing annoying but 2morrow im gonna fix this problem nd tell you whats being goiing on in mas detail

twitter

everybody has one.....it seems like celebrities r hooked onto that shxt. at first i thought it was stupid but now its grown on me...im thinkin of makin one...wat do ya'll think?

gay ass summer

remember a lonnnng time ago when i tld ya'll about my ex lil' boi? well he called me....nd at first i was happy to hear from him but then he kept talkin about i miss u bullshit nd it mad me not wanna go to camp. well i dont really have a choice anyway i HAVE to go even tho i tried so hard to go somewhere else my mom thinks i'd be "safe" going there caz she'll "know" where i am. im fxckin 16 nd she's acting like i can get a damn job or just stay home nd chill the whole summer...like wtf? i wanna get a real job to make sum $$ so i can get all new clothes i want but istead im stuck at that gay ass camp doiing forced labor for no fxckin $$ nd a added "bonus" i get to see my annoying ex-bf....this summer is going to be just wonderful isn't it?

wanna dance?

lol so last niite i went to a grad part at this place called chemistry lounge. it was mad nice...but thn again i bever been to a club before lol. this dude asked me to dance nd he was cute idk why i said no. i like was standing there for a second thinking should i ....caz mad people was grinding there so i knew thats wat we were gonna do ...so i was just like ok why go thru the trouble. nd he's like why u tryna play me and i just smiled and shook me head. thn he's just standing there on his sidekick and then he asked me wats ur name nd i told him. i regret not dancing wit him tho lol. anyway the party was mad kool caz... RON BROWZ performed. omg i already thought this 'man' was fiiine and seeing him in person omg he got a BODY nd this tattoo on his neck omg he just looked soo gud.... (sigh) i wish i could replay last niiite we left at like 1:30 nd i wanted to stay caz it wasnt even over yet :( lol

lego my eggo

sooo i've wanted to build up my accessorie collection 4 a while now and i've been eyeing some real sexii stuff. for example that lego heart by dee and ricky. now u kno i'm not spending no $65 on some legos put together by glue sooo i went on eBay and searched it up and found it for only $16! I also really want some MJ pins and i found them on eBay too..but i dont have a credit card or a pay pal account. :( i'll get them some how tho watch me now!

I LOVE THIS MAN...NO THIS PYT lol!!!

DRRAKKE...lemme have ur babies :)

well guys...

about to change the name of my blog...remember when i tld u some (otha) chick has the same name blog? yea....im kinda mad caz she also has more followers thn me and i've had my blog longer but im not hating. i've felt it needed a change for a while i just couldnt think of a name that fit me....im sure i'll find one soon tho. nd i know ya'll heard baout michal jackson....its so crazy every time i think about it it feels wierd like...he's really dead? mad people r sayin they never thought that was possible and now im starting to realize i thought the same way they did....but i guess everything happens for a reason...

transformers

is the best movie everrr!!! saw it just now ....kept me on my toes the whole time....sexy ass tyrese was in it...sexy ass shia ....dayuummmm ya'll needa see that movie!!!

life of the jet setter

so i went on diggy's blog last nite and was surprised...i loved it! it's exaclty the type of fashion-y blog i like. lol he thinks he's a little fashionisto. but i like it surprisingly. i just wish i could afford half the shit he's talking about on their....like all this kaws, original fake, dee and ricky (which i LOVE!!) and BBC stuff( o and Bape) anyway if u never went on their u should def check it out!!

dee-veloping situation

wat do u do wehn u like the dude that ur friend liked for a mahhhhd long time but deaded now? idk. i mean this chick is like my bestie.... seen me in my worst and all that shiiid...nd this is the second time this is happening. no one cares about the other dude caz he was an asshole but this kid? she liked him something MAJOR. but she doesn't "like" him anymore n now i do...caz he just started tlking to me. he's really not even that attractive but his personality is hilarious. idk wat to do. i feel like im torn caz she's my girl....nd i don't want this to end up like a gerren vs. tyler situation losing their friendship over a boy.


HELP!!!

bout to bagg!!!

so theres this boy im kinda feelin'. like he's tall n light skinned n has these big ass lips. like juicy delicious lips. everytime i see them i wanna push him against a locka nd kiss him lmao. buht....................he's a freshman...i kno so wat? exactly so wat...caz yew know waht? i'd bagg :)

to swagg

listen son....i really did like you but i can't be playin ya games anymore
its obvious who u wanna kick it wit
nd it ain't me.....so stop staring at me nd giving me those looks
thn go bak to puttin ur arm around "her"
i still got feeling for u but i can't be hurt again
so stop the bullshit

deaded

50 millionth time that swagg is deaded
this time i think i won't regret it

you know what i hate? when boys talk about you. idc if its girls caz they always bitchin but if it's boys it pisses me off caz u want boys to think of u in a good way. so i was in the commons standing against the doors and this group of dudes in my grade r looking over at me and my friend and pointing and laughing. i could see them and then i tried to avoid looking at them and then me and amadi left the commons and went into the hallway. first of all thery were MUG. so idk wat they were tlking about but thats what pisses me off....u'll never kno. so fcuk them. then i see swagg this morning walking by and my friend id walking behind him so i looked at her but was really looking at him....idk maybe thats what they were talking about but he always looks at me so? idk. then these other guys were calling me bitch n whore...i kno they were kidding but it still added to me being pissed. slowly i feel this shit building up and its gonna explode into me being a person certain people rn't gonna like. i feel like its gonna happen soon....REAL SOON. i already am starting not to care what people think especially girls unless they r my friends then ur opinion doesn't matter to me. but like i said its slowly building up about boys now. FUCK BOYS. fuck them. they don't wanna say shit to ur face then they still be staring at u from across the fucking commons. shiiiit.

same name?

WHOA.

so im going on one of my favorite blogs - draw of intimacies- and clicked on a random follower of hers and what? i find that some other chick has got the same blog name as me? now im not one for beef BUT i don't think thats fair. i do believe one of us should change the name caz that looks pretty shady...and i've had mine longer sooooo....you already know who should be keeping the name. but ohh well i don't really care im keeping my name either way. :)

PLAYED

i promised myself i would never cry over that loser and i won't cry over him but i am mad at him. i liked him nd this nigga acted like he liked me too. thn i see him in the hallway nd he walks rite past me like im not even there. then on our class trip to sixflags i ask him to win me something at on of those games nd he says no windsmir already asked him. thn the rest of the time i realized things. like when we went in that 3d roller coaster nd my friends forced me to sit next to him he was reaching over and touching her the whole time. thn one day i was sitting next to him nd we switched phones in i see in his phone "winds" im like wtf? thn i got to look in windsmir phone nd i see his name in it. thats when i realized how hard i was played by this mother fucker. so now im pissed at him caz i just heard how danced wit my friend at this party last night n i kno it was just a dance but thn y am i so mad?

BK

yesterday was mahhhhhd fun!!!! so we went down to BurgerKing to get those spongebob happy meals things that were supposed to gost oonly 99 cents but instead cost is $3. wtf? then we started messin wit the spongebob toys putting him in some...suggestive poses and takin pics of them on my friends G1. it was hilarious! thn we went bak to my house n had nuthin to do some we startin fillin up latex gloves and drawing faces on them aka water babies! but we didn't know what to do wit them so we put them in a bag and went around the corner to my other friends house and out them all on her front lawn. thn called her up n told her we were outside and hid in the bushes. she came outside and was like what the fuck? then heard us tryna run away and found us. i burst out laughin and shes just like what the fuck us wrong wit u guys? n we couldnt stop laughin. thn we went bak to my house and started puttin them in the street so that they would get popped by cars. at first no car would run over it the wheels would just like go between it but finally it started popping them! people was looking in the street like what is that? and swurving around it. it was tooo funny!!!

W00w hello peoples! i'm supposed to be doing my science hw...but unstead im on here reading blogs n all that. i found this blog from one of my followers nd its mahhhd funny! like he talks about all the girls he's "poking" lmao and the whore tour 08'. i kno im kinda late on his stuff caz it was from last year but it's still funny as hell!!!! he keeps it real to the fullest!!!!

KINGLIFEFOD.BLOGSPOT.COM



Anyway apart from the reading i finally know what imma b doing for the summer...im gonna b a CIT at my old camp. yes this is the same camp i avoided going to last year so i wouldn't c that ho michelle or my old boo Lil' Boi. but this year i have no other options ...nd plus if im a CIT this year next year i'll be a councler and get $900 for the summer!!! Wit that comes two dilemma's tho.

1. Lil'Boi- Ex Boo
2. Swagg- Current "man" lol

So theres a large chance that swagg might go there to to be a CIT which means we'd b on the same bus to get to camp and the same CIT group thing. Thats a mucho problemo- ie. we'd be forced together. Now that could be a good thing...or not since i just started crushin' hardbody for this kid i stopped lykin for a while. but we'll get to him in another post. buuut swagg might not go sooo thats a little bit of good news. i guess. ;)

skinny legs

i've been at war with my body since i was little. bak then people used to call me skinny and i used to brush it off. hey i was a little naive girl why should it matter to me? but as i got older i relaized everybody else was getting bigger and i was staying the same. I thought they were just getting fat but no i was just staying thin. By the time i was in middle skool i was very self consious and whenever somebody called me skinny i would cry. why'd i have to be so skinny...mean while i ate more then everybody else. people called me anorexic, bulimic... they said when i went to the bathroom i was throwing up my food and that i was so skinny i could fit my finger through the hole in a zipper.
One day i went home crying and called my mother and told her what happened. she told me to stop it right now. she told me that i was beautiful how i was and lots of other things. after that i no longer cried when people told me i was skinny b/c idc. they're just stating the obvious. But it still kinda gets to me. guys don't want the skinny chicks they want girl wit curves. girls wit booties and boobs. even tho i have those things i have it in very small amounts (lmao). so i am trying to gain weight.... 10 pounds or enough that im 112. thats a good weight. and to thos people who r making fun of me or doggin me caz i wanna gain weight and not lose it ---fcuk u! i still love my body but i'd love it even more it i got a little more meat on my skinny legs. :)

the mall yesterday was a bust. i went to charlotte russe and urban outfitters and was really disappointed. that was the first problem. the second was that the lines were really long so even if i wanted something i wasn't waiting for it. that made me mad for the rest of the day. plus now i have fcuking two big projects to do - a research paper due in 15 days and a science project due in 16 days. the science project wasn't even really explained so im confused wit that one. i wish i just got out of science honors caz i knew i was bad at chemistry and now im failing. lmao

swag and shopping

today was interesting. sawg sat across from me in the pizza shop. it was cute. but of course i was too much of a wuss to look directly at him. wow. i wish i could i wish i could so bad but i just couldn't...once again. it was like he was waiting for me to to do it caz even after the other people at the table got up he stayed at the table by himself for like five more minutes. i was so disappointed in myself that i could barely pay attention in english ninth period. i wish i could get some damn courage, man. Gawd thats what i need..courage. so i could actually look him the eye n smile. {sigh} anyway remember when i said i wanted to go thrifting? well i never did but i do wanna go to the mall because i've been shopping deprived. i want so more of those plaid striped shirts/tunics. i love them! n i've wanted some mocassins for a whiel now but since that season i almost over i'll prob just get it from payless real cheap < nd i don't shop there often...> so i'll just make a list of what i want:
mocassins
plaid shirts
beret
gladiators
vintage earrings/necklaces
nd more that i can't remember at the moment but i do wanna go to UO nd Charlotte Russe nd Delias nd all.

wats up wit swag?

i hate hw with a passion. i wish it didn't exist. it gets on my damn nerves. anyway idk whats up with swag ( i know ya'll haven't heard his name in a while now riite?). My idoit friend pushed me into him on thursday and for the rest of the day he didn't look at me. i know that sounds so pathetic but since we don't tlk those looks from him with those dark brown eyes are the only thing that lets me know he has any interest in me. I'm so stupid because i never use the chances i have to say something to him or anyone else i like for that matter. and then when i see them with other girls i get mad like they're already mine. if i can't go up to him then why can't him come up to me tho? last year i gave him lots of ways to tlk to me but he was either to shy or to stupid. i friended him on myspace - then he sent me a comment like dont b a stranger and so i commented him bak. but i was like i was always the one who had to start the talking on line not him. he could of asked for my aim but no. he didn't. so this year im like if he can do that wit all the other chicks he b tlkin to why can't he do that with me? it makes me wonder again : is he shy or just doesn't care?

cartilage piercing

I've been wanting one of these for a while now since last year. when i was a freshman i wanted it back in may and i asked my mom and she said to ask her in 6 months which is decemeber. i knew she did this just so i could forget but i didn't forget b/c i really want it. my friend alina got it so easily and im like why can't my parents just let me get it? they try to discourage me by saying it hurts...blah blah blah. i don't care i still want it! but this year all of the sudden EVERYBODY has one and i don't wanna seem like im copying people but i did want it for mad long now. its like a little trend amongst the girls...lol wow. but is like my parents think im joking...im not i really do want it and if they dont let me get it i'll just get it when i turn 18 anyway so they can try to hold it all they want.

come 2 jamaica and.....

yup yup thats where im headed...bak 2 mi roots ya nah? lol. Febuary break is next week so my daddy's takin me, my brother, nd my stpsister down to Jamaica. i love it there! i mean all the sexy jamaican boi's, the warm weather and stuff...the akscents.......hahahah. but on the real i love it. i've been there twice this will be my third time and the second time we're staying a a resort. i mean i like the resorts caz it has everything you need but i really wanna stay in a house ..not a mansion/villa thing but real jamaican livin'. like magrannies' house-my great grandmother who passed away when i was in first grand. i think they still have the house..idk. anyway thats where i wanna stay caz the resort is like too many white people stay there like they afriad to go out and really experience jamaica they just stay on the resort for all 7 days they there caz it already has all the resturants and beaches and pools. then when they go bak to where they from they say the had a wonderful time in jamaica but they didn't even see the real thing. plez. plus to me it looks like slavery all over again caz jamaica's black (duh) so the employees r black nd they have to serve all the white people. last time i went i didn't even see any sexies (except the very first day) at the resort. but i still wanna go becuase jamaica is 1/2 of me and trinidad is the other...i still haven't been there yet tho.

i got em!!!

i got the bangs! i don't know how i feel about them tho...like with my hair down it doesn't look right but when i put my hair back and had only the bangs out it looked nice. hopefully when i wake up in the morning and unwrap it, it'll look better bc the wrap pressed it down...idk. well i'll post pics as soon as i can ...ya digg?

bangs

bangs bangs bangs i want bangs! i've been wanting them for a long time now but i was too scared to get them for fear they'd be messed up or not look riite. plus theres this one friend of mine who im sure will b like wtf? why'd you get bangs? ur just copying me. i don't know why im stressin' over her but i am. anyway so many other people have bangs in skool so i don't y she'd b going so hard caz once i was tlking to M about how the beanie i was wearing didn't look right without bangs. then i said when i get them it'd look better. then this chick is like 'ur gettin' bangs' like it was the worst thing in the world. please. anyway i shouldn't let that stop me caz if she was really my friend she wouldn't care...instead of bitchin'. soooo i asked my otha girl who's always got my back i asked if i should get side bangs or regular nd she said regular soooo...... u already kno. i'm def thinking mad hard about this but i'm prob gonna get it. only have 2 days to decide! anyway 2morrow i wanna go thrifting for the first time ...i just have to ask first...im so excited!!!! nd we're supposed to go out to see a movie too.

i want it kinda like this:

grades

well well well guess whos in my new lunch period? yup swag..i've hade i for 3 days now but the first two days he didn't know..but today he found out in a major. we was walking in the commons nd he kept looking back at me like he was surprised i was here or something..lol finally. but anyway lets talk about skool. its mad frustrating to know that when you thought you got an 85 or better on your math midterm that u actually only got a 77-that pissed me off. and science i know i failed b/c i've been struggling all year. but s.studies is supposed to be my good class and i got lower then i expected on that test too. it's really discouraging because i wanna do well so i can get into the college i want which is on the west coast so i can get away from this coldness and finally live in LA. so i hope i can pull everything back up and at least pass science this year caz im def going into regents when im a junior.

BALDWIN HILLS!

well you know my favorite show is comin back on today! thats riiight baldwin hills! im so excited caz i get to see my boo again. eh heh you know who i mean-yes green eyed light skinned honey justin! i missed him! i guess BH was one of bet's best shows so instead of waiting for the summer they decided to bring it back now! thats a good choice on their part....o yes. anyway had my first midterm yesterday...i was hard 80 question and 3 essays...d-d-d-dayum! but it was worth it caz after we went to mcdonalds and had fun in the playplace-yep 7 16-years-olds in the playplace...it was mad fun lol. we called it the high club bc everybody was acting high for no reason. then later we went to a's house and she tld us about how everybody nd they momma been on this couch in the basement...dayuum. it was a loong ass list! then nobody wanted to sit on it caz of all the nasty things people been doin on it- and i don't mean just kissin i mean gettin it in! lol so i started calling it the loose it couch....ya digg???

swag delicious

2morrow starts midterm week...i'm mad scared i tried studying today but im nervous i didn't retain the info...so i hope i do well on this test caz is freakin AP! wish me luck!

SWAG: he's a very interesting person. like when he's wit his friends or by himself he has no problem whatsoeva to look at me but the only problem is talking to me. i mean listen kid if u like someone go up and tlk to them or at least hit me up on myspace, caz i have him as a friend. he has alll these options open and still does nothing but look. hmmmm...im wondering if she's just scared or he doesn't want to be seen wit me???? lyk wat do you want,boy??? but he;s he's not gonna step he needs to stop staring at me like a fucking TV screen....smh. b/c i needs myself a booboo. i miss the way they hold ur hand and talk nice to ya, and hug ya, and put they arms around ur waist nd all that. oooo ya'll don't know who im tlking bout riite? ok my ex 'lil Boi'. that was the nickname i gave him lol. we used to talk on the phone for hours and i had to tell him goodbye caz ur runnin up my minutes and then he'd call back like 30 minutes later. that was in summa '07. I've been single for a year now and i've been talkin to other dudes but they all end up playin me and talking to another girl or going out wit one. wtf is wrong wit this picture???

happy

im so happy! i have a follower! i feel like such a loser for being so happy about that ...lol. but anyway on tuesday's and thurdays my congregation can stay out later so we hung out in the commons. of course the whole time we were standing right next to swag. he was looking at me mad hard just leaning against the wall in my direction watching. but thats ok caz..eh heh you know! i was peeping him too. anyway i mad the stupid decision not ot got to the ap extra help thing or science (which im doin bad in). this will probably hurt me later on...damn

senior f**k list

can you guess what this is? im sure its self explainatory riite? o yes it is. my craziie ass friend made this up and she "hopes" (hehehe keep hoping) to get everyone of the names on her list either before or during senior year- thats when she thinks everybody will get sexy. hahaha yes my congregation is crazy nd a little nasty but i love them all =)

obama obama obama

so instead of going to DC like i wanted to i had to go to skool. luckily i got to here my future hubby get sworn in and his speech on the radio. anyway my friends say im fiendin ova dark chocolate now...nd i am! not on that stalker level tho. too bad that he's a senior tho...all the sexy people r! but no year will ever top 2008 seniors b/c dayuuummmm they were so fine! like every single one was sexy. like some of the sophmore boys r okay...but hopefully when we become upperclassmen next year a miracle will happen and they'll actually all look good....that'll probably neva happen....but a girl can dream right?

midterms

so next week is midterm week-gud caz we have off-bad caz we have to go in to take tests. I went to "supplemental instruction" for ap euro this morning 9-1 o clock. it was actually really good...nd im the the sit around all day and study type but it was easy to pay attention in that for 4 hrs then it is to try staying awake in the 45 minute class in skool. too much wokr this weekend i feel like when one things done i still have 20 more to do {sigh} wanna get bands cut but my friend will prob b mad caz she has bangs too nd thinks i'd b copying her. yea im really copying u when so many toher people we kno have bangs too! uh huh yep im totally copyin you...lol please. she'll get over it anyway. i saw dark chocolate yesterday...still lookin mad gud...i wish i had an opportunity to talk to him...he's just so damn fine...wooooo.

sexy dark chocolate

so today me and the congregation were standing in the commons waiting for the bell to ring and saw dark chocolate. omg he's so damn fine. he's african and his skin in the color of smooth dark chocolate...and boy can he dress. yesterday he was wearing purple and let me tell you...purple looks gud against dark skin. idk what grade he's in but i hope he's not a senior caz i def wanna see him next year. and tell me how when im walking down the hallway i pass 'swagg' and he is looking right into my eyes. for some reason i can never look back tho so i just looked down but i was cheezin mad hard when he passed. dayuuum i have to learn to look him in the eye again. =p

this kid

in a true chelle from " cheers to the teenage years" aka chelleroyal.blogspot.com im giving the mensz in my life nicknames b/c it thought that was mad funny! so i will give **** the honors of being the first to be given a nickname- "swagg". hahaha. well let me tell you about swag...he obviously has one even tho it might look funny =] but he's still fiiine. he looks like a waaayyy cuter version of ja rule. too bad he's shorter then me by like one inch big effin deal idc. anyway we tlked at the end of last year on myspace but nuthin big just " wats up" "nm u?" " just chillin at da crib" blah blah blah right? then he went out wit osme girl ova the summer broke up nd now he's hanging wit this spanish ho. ( don't have nuthin againt spanish people tho) so i still see him looking at me actually more like staring at me all the time when he's alone or wit his crew.

ToDAY~

Me aand the congregation are walking down the hall after skool so its empty nd theres this desk in the hallway nd guess who's there? yup swag. sitting in the desk wit spanish ho sitting on the floor next to him. i try to ignore him b/c his girl or wateva is there but i can see out the corner of my eye his head moving as i walk past. im just like dayuuuum nikka! if you really want this stop looking and reach into the cookie jar!

ya neva learn....

its funny how i can't stay away from blogging to long beofre i go insane....so im sorry mom i love you but i can't not blog. i guess its in my veins...lol. so this is the first post! wooohooo! 2009 baby! while im typing this my congregation aka my chickas are all out at the basketball game having fun watching all tha sexy chocolate run up and down the court...damn i wish i was there...o well....till next time is guess. in the mean time i got a math test to study for so that i don't FAIL it ...jeez i hate math wit a passion.

anyways...after MONTHS of begging i finally got my first ( of many more to come) pair of nike's wit actual color on them! i kno thats so pitiful..but listen first ok. i had some air force ones and i still have some dunks but they were white b/c my parents (who r from the ghetto) think sneaker wit color on them r ghetto shoes. cmon now and this makes total sense considering we r black and they r from the ghetto's of bk so ...wow. But they r sooo sexy i'd been eyeing them since last year june and i thought i wouldn't find them again because i hadn't seen them footlocer or on line but by miracle i found them i my mom shook her head yes that i could get them!

mayb that was partly b/c she was sittiing outside tlking on the phone and i held them up to the window so she really couldn't see the colors til i bought em....o welll =]