W00w hello peoples! i'm supposed to be doing my science hw...but unstead im on here reading blogs n all that. i found this blog from one of my followers nd its mahhhd funny! like he talks about all the girls he's "poking" lmao and the whore tour 08'. i kno im kinda late on his stuff caz it was from last year but it's still funny as hell!!!! he keeps it real to the fullest!!!!

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Anyway apart from the reading i finally know what imma b doing for the summer...im gonna b a CIT at my old camp. yes this is the same camp i avoided going to last year so i wouldn't c that ho michelle or my old boo Lil' Boi. but this year i have no other options ...nd plus if im a CIT this year next year i'll be a councler and get $900 for the summer!!! Wit that comes two dilemma's tho.

1. Lil'Boi- Ex Boo
2. Swagg- Current "man" lol

So theres a large chance that swagg might go there to to be a CIT which means we'd b on the same bus to get to camp and the same CIT group thing. Thats a mucho problemo- ie. we'd be forced together. Now that could be a good thing...or not since i just started crushin' hardbody for this kid i stopped lykin for a while. but we'll get to him in another post. buuut swagg might not go sooo thats a little bit of good news. i guess. ;)

skinny legs

i've been at war with my body since i was little. bak then people used to call me skinny and i used to brush it off. hey i was a little naive girl why should it matter to me? but as i got older i relaized everybody else was getting bigger and i was staying the same. I thought they were just getting fat but no i was just staying thin. By the time i was in middle skool i was very self consious and whenever somebody called me skinny i would cry. why'd i have to be so skinny...mean while i ate more then everybody else. people called me anorexic, bulimic... they said when i went to the bathroom i was throwing up my food and that i was so skinny i could fit my finger through the hole in a zipper.
One day i went home crying and called my mother and told her what happened. she told me to stop it right now. she told me that i was beautiful how i was and lots of other things. after that i no longer cried when people told me i was skinny b/c idc. they're just stating the obvious. But it still kinda gets to me. guys don't want the skinny chicks they want girl wit curves. girls wit booties and boobs. even tho i have those things i have it in very small amounts (lmao). so i am trying to gain weight.... 10 pounds or enough that im 112. thats a good weight. and to thos people who r making fun of me or doggin me caz i wanna gain weight and not lose it ---fcuk u! i still love my body but i'd love it even more it i got a little more meat on my skinny legs. :)

the mall yesterday was a bust. i went to charlotte russe and urban outfitters and was really disappointed. that was the first problem. the second was that the lines were really long so even if i wanted something i wasn't waiting for it. that made me mad for the rest of the day. plus now i have fcuking two big projects to do - a research paper due in 15 days and a science project due in 16 days. the science project wasn't even really explained so im confused wit that one. i wish i just got out of science honors caz i knew i was bad at chemistry and now im failing. lmao

swag and shopping

today was interesting. sawg sat across from me in the pizza shop. it was cute. but of course i was too much of a wuss to look directly at him. wow. i wish i could i wish i could so bad but i just couldn't...once again. it was like he was waiting for me to to do it caz even after the other people at the table got up he stayed at the table by himself for like five more minutes. i was so disappointed in myself that i could barely pay attention in english ninth period. i wish i could get some damn courage, man. Gawd thats what i need..courage. so i could actually look him the eye n smile. {sigh} anyway remember when i said i wanted to go thrifting? well i never did but i do wanna go to the mall because i've been shopping deprived. i want so more of those plaid striped shirts/tunics. i love them! n i've wanted some mocassins for a whiel now but since that season i almost over i'll prob just get it from payless real cheap < nd i don't shop there often...> so i'll just make a list of what i want:
mocassins
plaid shirts
beret
gladiators
vintage earrings/necklaces
nd more that i can't remember at the moment but i do wanna go to UO nd Charlotte Russe nd Delias nd all.

wats up wit swag?

i hate hw with a passion. i wish it didn't exist. it gets on my damn nerves. anyway idk whats up with swag ( i know ya'll haven't heard his name in a while now riite?). My idoit friend pushed me into him on thursday and for the rest of the day he didn't look at me. i know that sounds so pathetic but since we don't tlk those looks from him with those dark brown eyes are the only thing that lets me know he has any interest in me. I'm so stupid because i never use the chances i have to say something to him or anyone else i like for that matter. and then when i see them with other girls i get mad like they're already mine. if i can't go up to him then why can't him come up to me tho? last year i gave him lots of ways to tlk to me but he was either to shy or to stupid. i friended him on myspace - then he sent me a comment like dont b a stranger and so i commented him bak. but i was like i was always the one who had to start the talking on line not him. he could of asked for my aim but no. he didn't. so this year im like if he can do that wit all the other chicks he b tlkin to why can't he do that with me? it makes me wonder again : is he shy or just doesn't care?