soul searchin

i need to some serious like damn SERIOUS soul searching b4 i go back to skool. today was SB's last day and i couldnt tlk to him. i wanted to but i couldn't. every opportunity i saw and let it fuxkin pass me by. like they were all staring me in the face. i wanted to give him a hug and tell him to c.a.l.l. me but i punked out. i feel soooo bad like dayum wtf is wrong wit me? im not shy but i let things just pass me by nd regret thm hardbody later on. so thts y i gotta do my soul searching to change tht stupid pussy ass move i always do. like really im pissed riite now and the only person i can really b mad at is me.